10.09.08

You have NO IDEA what it’s like living in Korea!

Posted in Uncategorized at 10:45 pm by angelasm

R.I.P.

Filed under: R.I.P. > Sad Sad

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This is an awful trend that has to stop!

As we mentioned last week, South Korea actress in Choi Jin-sil, was found dead of an apparent suicide.

And now, just a few days later, another South Korean celeb has committed suicide.

This time it’s Kim Ji-hoo, a young 23 year old model and actor.

Apparently, after coming out as gay, the harassment was just too much for him.

So sad!

Ji-hoo was found dead earlier this week after apparently hanging herself.

This seems to be a common trend in South Korea, with many people not being able to tolerate the social pressures, such as actress Jeong Da-Bin and pop singer Yuni, both of which were found hanged last year.

And according to the Organization for Economic Cooperation and Development (OECD), South Korea has the highest suicide rate of all OECD members, many of which are developed countries.

Suicide is never the answer, y’all!!!!

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BUT PEOPLE… i grew up in KOREA and Im all kinds of fucked up now!

These violent delights have violent ends And in their triumph die

Posted in Uncategorized at 12:18 pm by angelasm

PRELUDE

ACT II SCENE VI
Enter FRIAR LAURENCE and ROMEO
FRIAR LAURENCE
So smile the heavens upon this holy act,
That after hours with sorrow chide us not!

ROMEO
Amen, amen! but come what sorrow can,
It cannot countervail the exchange of joy
That one short minute gives me in her sight:
Do thou but close our hands with holy words,
Then love-devouring death do what he dare;
It is enough I may but call her mine.

FRIAR LAURENCE
These violent delights have violent ends
And in their triumph die, like fire and powder,
Which as they kiss consume: the sweetest honey
Is loathsome in his own deliciousness
And in the taste confounds the appetite:
Therefore love moderately; long love doth so;
Too swift arrives as tardy as too slow.

Enter JULIET

Here comes the lady: O, so light a foot
Will ne’er wear out the everlasting flint:
A lover may bestride the gossamer
That idles in the wanton summer air,
And yet not fall; so light is vanity.

JULIET
Good even to my ghostly confessor.

FRIAR LAURENCE
Romeo shall thank thee, daughter, for us both.

JULIET
As much to him, else is his thanks too much.

ROMEO
Ah, Juliet, if the measure of thy joy
Be heap’d like mine and that thy skill be more
To blazon it, then sweeten with thy breath
This neighbour air, and let rich music’s tongue
Unfold the imagined happiness that both
Receive in either by this dear encounter.

JULIET
Conceit, more rich in matter than in words,
Brags of his substance, not of ornament:
They are but beggars that can count their worth;
But my true love is grown to such excess
I cannot sum up sum of half my wealth.

FRIAR LAURENCE
Come, come with me, and we will make short work;
For, by your leaves, you shall not stay alone
Till holy church incorporate two in one.

PREFORMANCE

TYBALT

Romeo, the hate I bear thee can afford
No better term than this,–thou art a villain.

ROMEO

Tybalt, the reason that I have to love thee
Doth much excuse the appertaining rage
To such a greeting: villain am I none;
Therefore farewell; I see thou know’st me not.

TYBALT

Boy, this shall not excuse the injuries
That thou hast done me; therefore turn and draw.

ROMEO

I do protest, I never injured thee,
But love thee better than thou canst devise,
Till thou shalt know the reason of my love:
And so, good Capulet,–which name I tender
As dearly as my own,–be satisfied.

MERCUTIO

O calm, dishonourable, vile submission!
Draws
 Tybalt, you rat-catcher, will you walk?

TYBALT

What wouldst thou have with me?

MERCUTIO

Good king of cats, nothing but one of your nine
lives; that I mean to make bold withal, and as you
shall use me hereafter, drybeat the rest of the
eight. Will you pluck your sword out of his pitcher
by the ears? make haste, lest mine be about your
ears ere it be out.

TYBALT

I am for you.

Drawing

ROMEO

Gentle Mercutio, put thy rapier up.

MERCUTIO

Come, sir, your passado.

They fight

ROMEO

Draw, Benvolio; beat down their weapons.
Gentlemen, for shame, forbear this outrage!
Tybalt, Mercutio, the prince expressly hath
Forbidden bandying in Verona streets:
Hold, Tybalt! good Mercutio!

TYBALT under ROMEO’s arm stabs MERCUTIO, and flies with his followers

MERCUTIO

I am hurt.
A plague o’ both your houses! I am sped.
Is he gone, and hath nothing?

ROMEO
What, art thou hurt?

MERCUTIO

Ay, ay, a scratch, a scratch; marry, ’tis enough.
Where is my page? Go, villain, fetch a surgeon.

ROMEO

Courage, man; the hurt cannot be much.

MERCUTIO

No, ’tis not so deep as a well, nor so wide as a
church-door; but ’tis enough,’twill serve: ask for
me to-morrow, and you shall find me a grave man. I
am peppered, I warrant, for this world. A plague o’
both your houses! ‘Zounds, a dog, a rat, a mouse, a
cat, to scratch a man to death! a braggart, a
rogue, a villain, that fights by the book of
arithmetic! Why the devil came you between us? I
was hurt under your arm.

ROMEO

I thought all for the best.

MERCUTIO

Help me into some house, Benvolio,
Or I shall faint. A plague o’ both your houses!
They have made worms’ meat of me: I have it,
And soundly too: your houses!

Exeunt MERCUTIO


ROMEO

This gentleman, the prince’s near ally,
My very friend, hath got his mortal hurt
In my behalf; my reputation stain’d
With Tybalt’s slander,–Tybalt, that an hour
Hath been my kinsman! O sweet Juliet,
Thy beauty hath made me effeminate
And in my temper soften’d valour’s steel!

Alive, in triumph! and Mercutio slain!
Away to heaven, respective lenity,
And fire-eyed fury be my conduct now!
Re-enter TYBALT
Now, Tybalt, take the villain back again,
That late thou gavest me; for Mercutio’s soul
Is but a little way above our heads,
Staying for thine to keep him company:
Either thou, or I, or both, must go with him.

TYBALT

Thou, wretched boy, that didst consort him here,
Shalt with him hence.

ROMEO

This shall determine that.

They fight; TYBALT falls

ROMEO

O, I am fortune’s fool! Exit ROMEO

10.01.08

He jests at scars that never felt a wound

Posted in Uncategorized at 5:24 am by angelasm

To consume my self, to be Romeo, not just to act the part.  Truth, Beauty, Freedom… and above all, Love.

09.26.08

Punishment

Posted in Uncategorized at 9:46 pm by angelasm

I’ve made many bad decisions in my life.  The one’s concerning my well being, I almost intentially did it, no matter what I did, the result would be me being hurt.  I am blessed in many ways, but nothing makes you realize how far you’ve fallen until you have nothing to eat and only sneekers to take you from point A to point B.  Not even being able to spare change for public transportation.  Wake up I tell myself, make it better.  The market has crashed (debatable, but it’s a mess) and I’m in fear that where I am now could get much worse even if i am able to fix my situation or not.

What makes it worse is, I used to be so bold.  Now I find my self sumissive, and ready to heal when my master calls for me.  I feel as if I can not leave this situation, till I finally get on my hind legs and am able to walk freely.  My chock chain almost gets tighter every day.  To love one’s master, but I am not a animal, I am a individual.  Things that are obvious to others may be blind to the one’s who should be able to see it the most. I can only hope that they will understand, and know that I love them, and am not doing this to hurt them, but only because I need to look out for myself and really be Independent.

North Korea After Kim Jong Il

Posted in Uncategorized at 7:03 pm by angelasm

North Korea After Kim Jong Il

Rumors of a stroke or illness have Korea watchers wondering what the nuclear-armed, communist country would look like after Dear Leader

by Moon Ihlwan

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Around the globe, speculation is rife about the fate of nuclear-armed North Korea. Intelligence officials in the U.S. and South Korea are openly discussing the possibility that longtime Stalinist leader Kim Jong Il, 66, is sick and may not remain in power for long. Some even raise the prospect of an outright collapse of North Korea’s communist regime or a messy power struggle in this reclusive country locked in the world’s last cold-war confrontation.

Informed North Korea experts in Seoul largely brush aside such scenarios, at least for the short term. The National Intelligence Service, the South Korean equivalent of the CIA, has said Kim has been suffering from chronic heart disease and diabetes but that his life is not in danger. Moreover, they say, there are no signs the North Korean elite is in disarray despite Kim’s conspicuous absence from celebrations on Sept. 9 marking the 60th anniversary of the country’s founding.

North Korea, founded by Kim Il Sung in 1948, has had only two leaders. Since the “Great Leader” died in 1994, his son Kim Jong Il has ruled the nation, but unlike his father, the junior Kim has not publicly groomed any of his three sons for a transfer of power. “I don’t know exactly who and in what form, but an immediate assumption of control will likely be made from the military in one way or another,” says Choi Soo Young, a researcher at Korea Institute for National Unification, a government-funded think tank in Seoul.

An Official Denial

A top North Korean official, in response to comments by intelligence officers in Seoul and Washington that Kim might have collapsed in recent weeks and remained under medical care, denied on Sept. 10 Kim was seriously ill. “There’s no problem,” Kim Yong Nam, president of the Supreme People’s Assembly Presidium, the second-ranking official in the reclusive country’s communist hierarchy, told Japan’s Kyodo news agency.

South Korean markets, accustomed to speculation about Kim (who has a history of dropping out of sight for months before showing up in public for a visit to a military base or a factory), responded little to the news of Kim’s illness. The benchmark Kospi stock index of the Seoul bourse ended 0.7% higher at 1464.98.

Even if things take a turn for the worse and Kim is suddenly incapacitated, many Pyongyang watchers believe the North won’t suffer from a prolonged power vacuum. Neither are they really worried about millions of refugees stampeding into South Korea. Also unlikely: a coup that leads to a new government that would put Kim’s cronies before a firing squad. “If Kim Jong Il dies, a new leadership is likely to emerge from the military fairly quickly,” says Koh Yu Hwan, North Korea specialist at Dongguk University.

Absorption Is Not an Option

That’s because Kim has built his power around the military and has ruled the country in his capacity as the chairman of the powerful National Defense Council. Koh and many other North Korea experts expect top officers at the council to take control of the country. The absorption of East Germany by West Germany at the end of the Cold War in Europe is not a model, experts say. “It is not right to draw a parallel between Germany and Korea,” says one Western diplomat. “We are talking about two different international contexts and climates.”

No one is suggesting a transition will be smooth in the impoverished North. And analysts are not ruling out an eventual internal power struggle. But in the regimented society totally cut off from the outside world, there has been no room for any disgruntled group to organize dissent. Top generals loyal to Kim are the only ones allowed to mobilize soldiers.

Whoever is in charge after Kim’s departure will face the daunting task of steering the country out of famine and international isolation in order to develop its rickety economy. The Bank of Korea, the central bank of the South, estimates the North’s gross domestic product in 2007 at just over $20 million, well below 3% of the size of the South Korean economy.

Not Following China

In an effort to show the world he was interested in opening up the economy, Kim Jong Il early this decade toured the Chinese cities of Shanghai and Shenzhen to learn from Chinese experience with reform. But he was never serious about it. “The opportunity depends on how the ruling group in North Korea perceives China in the transition,” says Zhu Feng, deputy director of Beijing University’s Center for International and Strategic Studies. “We strongly hope North Korean people could follow the Chinese model, opening up and reform. But the problem is we failed—they don’t feel that it is necessary to follow China.”

North Koreans are also suffering through their worst food shortage in a decade, exacerbated by China’s controls on grain exports, the United Nations said last week. China curbed surging food prices in its domestic market. International aid officials figure one out of every five North Koreans relies on food aid from outside the country.

Another pressing diplomatic challenge is defusing tension over North Korea’s nuclear program. North Korea agreed last year to give up its nuclear ambitions in return for aid and diplomatic rewards from the U.S. But late last month, the Pyongyang government reversed course, complaining that Washington had not removed it from the list of state sponsors of terrorism. The North said it had stopped disabling its main nuclear complex (BusinessWeek.com, 6/30/08) and threatened to reassemble its main nuclear facilities.

Analysts hope a leadership change in the North will provide a new impetus for change. “Policy options under Kim Jong Il have been limited because his professed top priority has been continuing his father’s legacy,” says Yang Moon Soo, economist at University of North Korean Studies in Seoul. “A new leader will have to accept changes to win support from the public through economic development.”

Moon is BusinessWeek’s Seoul bureau chief. With Dexter Roberts in Beijing

08.21.08

RI bishop wants US to halt mass immigration raids

Posted in Uncategorized at 11:53 pm by angelasm

PROVIDENCE, R.I. – Rhode Island’s Roman Catholic bishop is calling on U.S. authorities to halt mass immigration raids and says agents who refuse to participate in such raids on moral grounds deserve to be treated as conscientious objectors.

Providence Bishop Thomas Tobin asked for a blanket moratorium on immigration raids in Rhode Island until the nation adopts comprehensive immigration reform. Tobin made the requests in a letter sent Tuesday to U.S. Immigration and Customs Enforcement in Boston.

The letter was sent Tuesday and publicly released Thursday.

“We often ask, ‘What would Jesus do?’” Tobin said in an interview Thursday. “I know for sure what Jesus would not do, would be to sweep into a community, gather up large numbers of people, separate them from one another and deport them to another country. In my own mind, in my own conscience, that’s crystal clear: Jesus would not do that.”

Tobin’s action comes during a heated debate over illegal immigration in heavily Catholic Rhode Island. Authorities recently raided six courthouses looking for illegal immigrant maintenance workers and Gov. Don Carcieri, himself a Catholic, signed an order requiring state police and prison officials to identify illegal immigrants for possible deportation.

“We believe that raids on the immigrant community are unjust, unnecessary, and counterproductive,” the bishop’s letter says. It urges individual federal agents to consider the morality of their actions and refuse to participate if their conscience dictates.

In such cases, he said, “we urge the Federal Government to fully respect the well-founded principles of conscientious objection.”

ICE spokeswoman Kelly Nantel said the agency respects Tobin but believes his diocese “would be better served by helping individuals to comply with the law or working to change those laws rather than asking law enforcement agents not to enforce it.”

Carcieri questioned Tobin’s logic during an interview on WPRO-AM.

“If you choose to become a law enforcement officer, you swear to uphold the laws of the state and the nation,” Carcieri said. “That’s what you do. You don’t want to do that, then don’t become a law enforcement officer.”

ICE spokeswoman Paula Grenier said she did not know if any ICE agents have asked to be excused from participating in raids on moral grounds.

Roman Catholic and other religious leaders have repeatedly criticized immigration raids that target migrant workers, rather than illegal immigrants who commit crimes.

Tobin’s request is unusual because it suggests the raids are forcing immigration agents to choose between their jobs and their religious faith.

Tobin is bishop of the Diocese of Providence, which covers the entire state. Some 60 percent of Rhode Island residents call themselves Roman Catholic, a higher percentage than any other state.

The U.S. Conference of Catholic Bishops has called U.S. immigration policies “morally unacceptable,” saying they keep families divided and encourage the exploitation of migrants.

While the bishops’ conference has said the federal government has a right to launch raids, it believes they are often counterproductive, said Kevin Appleby, director of the conference’s Office of Migration and Refugee Policy.

He said Tobin’s letter is unique because it asks that ICE agents be excused from raids on religious or moral grounds.

“I think it’s an interesting idea because, from our reports, a lot of these raids have really impacted families and individuals and really terrorized communities,” Appleby said. “It should be logical that some agents think that tactic is too harsh and might not want to participate.”

Tobin said he decided to write the letter after hearing about the plight of suspected illegal immigrants arrested during raids in June and July.

The July raid on the Rhode Island courthouses occurred as Tobin was attending the first meeting of a panel charged with monitoring the implementation of Carcieri’s crackdown on illegal immigrants.

As the illegal immigrants were being arrested, the state police superintendent assured Tobin and other clergy that his officers would not launch immigration raids. State police later said they were just assisting in a federal investigation.

07.30.08

Damned?

Posted in Uncategorized at 6:58 am by angelasm

It was lovely being awoken to a earthquake. I looked at the statue my father bought my mom in second grade, and spent the duration of the earthquake keeping it safe.

Anyways, I’ve been writing a lot lately. My imagination takes me to a beautiful dark place. I think this is the story I’ll actually finish, so far it touches me, and I enjoy the components, it has everything I love best about stories I read and so much more. I’ve very patient with it. If i don’t know what to do next i let it come to me, and when it does, pour it out of my soul onto paper. Then I type it, revise it, and love it.

Angela

“Success didn’t spoil me; I’ve always been insufferable.” – Fran Lebowits

07.25.08

Anything for Love

Posted in Uncategorized at 2:17 am by angelasm

It’s been over a year since I’ve been to Mass. (Once during lent) I have begun to see/hear/feel the gentle *sigh* of Jesus on the cross, and I just wait for him to look at me, and ask me when I will return. I think of my Godmother, and how disappointed she would be in me, and yet, I know her resolve would never let me know nothing but love from her. I’ve decided to return back to a Parish, and join their music ministry. I know it would fill a whole that i ripped from my own heart.

“Love is the crocodile on the river of desire.” -Bhartrihari (c. 625)

<3 and I’ve been bitten hard!

07.07.08

Young Hearts Run Free

Posted in Uncategorized at 3:19 am by angelasm

I always sit and think of all the things i want to do in my life, It’s amazing how many thing’s on the list I’ve already done….

I decided to sign up for Yoga classes today.  I have so much energy and no where to focus it on.  Summer goes by so much faster and it’s like the magic of the season left for me.  I suppose that it’s because California is more of an eternal summer.  I have to say I’m happily addicted and accustom to the lifestyle that is offered here.  It mixes beauty, discovery, passions, virtues, and the weather always seems to promise tomorrow will come, that no matter what, there will be another day.

It’s hard to ignore the Hollywood drama that is located in your home town.  When you read about actual news stories, the horror, and utter disappointment makes you want the bubble gum bull shit of tinsel town. So I sit trying to watch Fox… But the topic makes me have anxiety, so i turn the Channel to E! Where the Male Barbie Doll, Ryan Cecrest rushes to comfort you with secrets of America’s royalty. I smile, I admire, I get caught up, I start coveting, I start to dream, and I feel like I’m ready to take on my neighbor hood, and join the possy of La La Land. Then I go out with my family, I look around and everyone seems to be oblivious to the truth, that they are okay with accepting a false fate, because the outcome pleases their conscious.

I return home, to my Cats, I feed them and turn on my PC.  I rather Ignore the TV now.  I am then plugged into the web.  I’ve been ignoring the internet, because the world moves it’s fastest here.  I am in full contact with anyone and anything I could ever desire.  I have spend money, money on clothes, money on shoes, money on Sound systems, On Televisions, On my Computer, and of course, Perfume & make-up.  My house is a spiritual house, I have a high believe in god.  I might not always attend church anymore but that does not deny him any glory from me.  I am on my own, in my own domain, in control of my life.  Here, no one can bring me down.

I have become strong in my Independence from the relationships that society might have to offer.  I have spent the past years of my life focusing on my family, focusing on making everything balanced and okay so I can continue with a good conscious and a comfort that I get day to day know that we’re all okay, and we’re all moving forward with life.  No more drama.  No more drama.

Now That I’ve figured out who I am, what I want, what I believe, and with a great new knowledge of Communication I feel I’m ready to stop hiding from society, and that I’m excited and am glad to be back!

Woot for the narcist!  I got 215 :D

Angela

06.26.08

Happy Birthday Mayumi~

Posted in Uncategorized at 6:34 pm by angelasm

Today I’ve realize that I’ve been running and running. I cannot deny my self of the things I love. It killed my soul for so many years, I’m in college, I’m doing well, and I don’t have my mother haunting my every step about how she would do it, and if she approves or not of MY ways. I tried to be the nice preppy girl for her… and well.. I am listening to rock blasting from my speakers, my finger nails are cut short and painted black, my hair is long and dark golden brown, I cannot live without my eyelash curler, mascara, and eyeliner; I have a trainer that I go to twice a week, along with running daily without her telling me I’m not doing it right, I’m singing again, everyday, to whatever or even my own beat, I’m writing, reading and gaming too. I have a supportive family here, and as much as I love her, I don’t want to leave California, and couldn’t imagine my self happier or more complete then I am right now at this moment. No more insomnia, No more meds from the shrink, just happy and healthy around people that love and support me and are verbal about it every step of the way. My support group, my American family has been incredible to me. Its been over a year now, and I can finally be normal and function like a true human being. I’m not crushed daily, and I especially don’t feel worthless anymore. I really do feel like all things are possible, and Jesus and I are still close, but I’m still a almost-20 year old. I make mistakes, but it’s okay as long as I learn and progress from them.

oh yeah and…

Californiacation

Angela