September 26, 2008
Punishment
I’ve made many bad decisions in my life. The one’s concerning my well being, I almost intentially did it, no matter what I did, the result would be me being hurt. I am blessed in many ways, but nothing makes you realize how far you’ve fallen until you have nothing to eat and only sneekers to take you from point A to point B. Not even being able to spare change for public transportation. Wake up I tell myself, make it better. The market has crashed (debatable, but it’s a mess) and I’m in fear that where I am now could get much worse even if i am able to fix my situation or not.
What makes it worse is, I used to be so bold. Now I find my self sumissive, and ready to heal when my master calls for me. I feel as if I can not leave this situation, till I finally get on my hind legs and am able to walk freely. My chock chain almost gets tighter every day. To love one’s master, but I am not a animal, I am a individual. Things that are obvious to others may be blind to the one’s who should be able to see it the most. I can only hope that they will understand, and know that I love them, and am not doing this to hurt them, but only because I need to look out for myself and really be Independent.
